NikB's latest update (#23)

[NikB]

Had a smiling day! Thanks all.

I got most of my Xmas decorations up.. not the tree yet because I couldn't move the furniture around to put it up. Frustrated me actually.. I kept thinking "Well if this was MY house I'd have it set up in a way that worked for me without needing help." It makes me wonder.. do I work on getting this house the way I "need" it to live here by myself? Or just realized if we D I wouldn't stay here (and if we don't.. it's OK to need help with some stuff??). So that was kind of an odd moment... but very brief.

Was SO happy to get all the decor up, it's very Christmasy in here now!! Finished most of my shopping and have a solid list for the rest, so I'm almost there.. whew.

Tonight was crazy - was supposed to be the end of year bellydance get together with my instructor and she was performing. I went with my mom and a friend. We got there and the place had NO idea who my instructor (also their featured dancer for the night!) was, no reservation, nothing.. grr!! I hate feeling like I was "wrong" (and realized tonight HOW much it bothers me, proabably too much). Turns out it was the place that messed up... instructor got there maybe 10 minutes later and was really upset w/them, got our tables set up, etc. Hooray.. not crazy!! Probably something I need to work on though, I think it upset me way more than my mom or friend.

The food wasn't so good but the dancing was soo much fun. Our instructor (of course) made all her students come up and dance w/her. I was the only beginner student who came so I was really embarassed BUT I did it. I realized just HOW good she is, too - incredible muscle control and some really unique moves. It was fun to watch her perform. http://www.adrianedance.com if you want to check out some video.

After we sat down I was talking to one of her other advanced students and said "OMG that was embarassing, I can't believe I did that and people were watching us!" She said "Oh I know, I just look straight at her the whole time, like it's a lesson!" Realized I had done the same and it's the ONLY way I was doing that in a public place.. . Had a lot of fun though. Can't wait to get back to regular weekly classes in January.

Hoping to finish catching up on Christmas stuff tomorrow so I can stop freaking out and start enjoying...