DR Chapter 2 - Think Small

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Ok, well as I said earlier, we had plans to go shopping for food for the ski trip next weekend so We met up and she looked great! She did her make-up and everything and I told her that she looked great! I was wearing just a t-shirt purposely to show off how much wieght I lost and so she can see my biceps have gotten bigger because I have been working out hard. I made a muscle for her and she said it was impressive. Im making sure I look my best. Cant hurt to try to get her attracted to me again.

We got into the car and I gave her a Valentines day card and a gift. She was surprised and felt bad she didnt get me anything but I was fine with it. She read the card that I went to 5 stores to find the right one. It was very touching but no romantic overtones and reffered to her as a friend and she kind of laughed at that part. I bought her a DVD called Anne of Green Gables, which I rememberred from a few years ago how she liked it a lot. I think she was very suprised it was something with meaning which I rememberred.

Anyways, we went to the store and we had a great time. We were getting along perfectly, just without being affectionate. I was just focusing on having a lot of positive energy coming from me and it worked. After food shopping we went to the mall next door for lunch / dinner. As we got to the car, I opened the door for her like I used to and as I waled around the car, she leaned over and opened my door from the inside. that made me feel so happy I cant explain it.

We went to the mall and She had a few phone calls from her friends, and one happened to be her guy friend but I didnt let it bother me to the point where I would act out of my emotions. After all, it was mostly talk about the ski trip and food everyone would like.

We went to eat and we talked a lot about regular stuff and I asked about her work and I talked about the night before how I went clubbing with some friends. She was asking me if anyone got girls #'s or if I danced with anyone and other questions. I think she is testing me. She also asked if I am still seeing a therapist and if I told my family. I think she just likes to see if Im writing her off yet. We talked a lot and she made comment about me losing a lot of wieght too. She did bring up fact how her family questions her friendship with Guy friend because they dont think she should be friends with a man unless its me, even though her other sisters do. I think its just because they know there are problems with us. Anyways, she also mentioned how they questioned how her friend came from NY to jersey on valentines day to go shopping with her for ski gear for this trip. It bothered me that she was with him on that day, but she is just friends and she makes it clear to me all the time and I trust her. I really, really do. But she is telling me about him and her other friends and her activities which is showing an increase in trust!

So, we left the mall and once again I opened the door and she opened mine again. I brought in the food with her and shortly after I left. The whole day was very positive with lots of communication and joking around and having fun. I think it went great and will lead up to a great weekend together next weekend!

I think thats all for now. It was a great day and If I think of anything else, Ill be back. Wish me luck everyone!!