Ok, heres what happened for Valentines Day. Her sisters threw a party in Queens NY at here sisters apt. and she said she might go. I went anyways, and was hopiong to see her there. She did mention to me that her friend (man friend) wants to come to jersey to buy ski gear for the upcoming trip and might go saturday, V-day. Anyways, I was having fun but really missed her there and couldnt help but think of what she may be doing. I guess deep down I know if she was with him, its a a friend and thats it. But it still kills me!! and I get these crazy thoughts in my head!
After all, my jealousy of her friendship with him caused more of a riff earlier on so I must be strong and accept this friendship, its just that I dont trust him because he had a thing for her a while back and he is now single. Anyways, I stayed over at her sisters place and I had fun and loved being with them. I was invited to stay longer but I came home Sunday evening. It was a little upsetting because her sisters are like my own and they really think of me as a brother and part of me wanted to cry because I dont want to lose them either.
I sent her a text messagwe saying happy valentines day around midnight but she didnt respond and it bothered me a little.
Well, Sunday night while watching TV, I got a text message from her saying she was talking to her aunt on the phone and was bored. I am trying to be happy that she thought of me and thats a good thing. But still a little bothered I didnt hear back on V-day.
I got her a V-day gift and a card and I really want to give it to her. I brought it to the party but she didnt show. Well, last night on Monday I sent her text message saying hello and that I was taking a break from studying. This was around 10-ish and she IM me after Midnight. She probably didnt have her phone on or near her, but I wanted to actually call her to say hello but I settled for a text message.
I know I am failing at my need for patience. I am going to try harder and remember my thought stopping skills.
Recent Positives to Remeber
She called me on Tuesday to discuss ski trip and we had a very pleasant talk about several things and I made her laugh too.
She wants me to take her shopping for ski trip weekend.
She sounds like she is happy I am going to be in her cabin
She is driving up to the cabin with me instead of man friend now.
She called me Wednesday to Thank me for Card and Called me again to tell me about LOTR Movie.
After I asked God to show me a sign she cares on Sunday, she text messaged me at night.
She responded to my text message on Monday.
Anything worth having is worth working HARD for!
Making a New Move
