DR Chapter 2 - Think Small

[marc_d]

Well, I went out to dinner last night in NYC with some mutual friends of ours and I had a lot of fun. It was for someones B-day and I met a lot of new people too. Anyways, When I was about to start driving home, I text messaged her and just said, "hey, how are you?" And she called me right away instead of texting me back. I pulled over to talk so I wasnt driving back to jersey on my phone and wound up talking for an hour!

Once again, she vented to me most of the time about problems with her sisters and this ski trip coming up. I am becoming a pro at being a good listener. She also told me how she talked to her mom on the phone on thursday or friday.(her mother relocated with her job to North Carolina right before we went on the break). Her mom asked her about me and her and whats going on because her father told her Im never at the house anymore.

My GF didnt really respond to her questions. But her mom said, well I understand that sometimes things just dont work out and sometimes people change. My GF was silent after her mom said these things. Then she said, is that what happened? And my GF just said, "yeah".

At first it hurt me but I was able to bring back my positive thinking. Part of me does feel like she needs to fully admit to herself and her family about whats happening before she can fully appreciate what she might miss. And, hopefully without pressure from her family about me, she can stop blaming me for that.

Well, Im just going to keep remembering how strong her love was for me for so many years, and I must have faith in her and the Lord that a love like that wont dissapear. Also, she told me last month its not too late and that its just going to take time. So, I am going to stay on track!

Oh, one more thing! While on the phone with her, when we talked about the ski trip, I asked if her man friend was bringing another friend still and she said she didnt know because she hasnt really talked to him. That made me happy. But I know she has nothing for him and I have been much better in accepting her friendship with him.

So, today I am bored and I asked her to lunch today last night but she said she wasnt sure because she might be busy at home and to call her back today. Ill call her but I wont push the subjuect. Besides, if I dont see her until the ski trip, it gives me time keep working out at the gym I joined and blow her away when she sees me!

I have gotten in so much better shape, even Im shocked. I cant wait until she can see me in the warmer weather when I wear t-shirts again! its hard to see the drastic changes in winter clothes.

Oh, I also just remembered, I tried to end the call a few times because she sounded tired last night and she kept me on! So, Everytime I try to end a call, she never lets me go. She always wants to stay on. Thats a great sign right?! Well, Ill end it like this for now. I know I write a lot but its good for me. helps me remember positive things. Ok, pray for me everyone!