WAW hasn't walked yet, but emotionally dead

[wawpioneer]

Wow mako,

I am so sorry to hear about the discovery on the cell phone bill. My WAW had a similar bill that I discovered with OM. She had talked to him excessivly. However, she had admitted it to me at least. I am sorry to hear that she did not admit a potential A to you. Unfortunately, it sounds like she is involved with OM to some degree even if it is not physical. I hope that detaching is working for you and that it will help you to GAL.

I pray that one day she will realize that she is really leaving a man that has had an awakening and that things could be different if she would give it another shot. My WAW is back at home and I guess to some extent is trying in her own way but we are not seeing MC or anything. Ultimately, you W will have to live with the decision to not try it and will always wonder if she made the right choice. You will not have that problem. You know what the right choice is. We may have failed our Rs but our WAWs will have to fail our Ms all by themselves.

Hang in there. These are long roads ahead of us one way or the other and patience will be needed. Take care and I will talk to you soon.

[mako]

Thanks WP.

I backslid a bit this week. W and I had been exchanging e-mails, and they were fine, but then I went into some R talk. I was very unvalidating and questioning about what is going on (nothing about OM, just in general) and she took it to be me saying that she is illogical. I was in a bad mood cause of the phone bill I guess, and instead of just talking to somebody else I took it out in e-mail to her. She wasn't pleased, said she's worried exchanges between us are just going to be hostile, which is not what she wants but maybe that's how I feel...

I replied, much more validating of her feelings and reiterating that I don't want things to be hostile and would like to be friends. She hasn't replied to that, so we'll see. I guess we all have our slides, I've certainly pushed things back a bit as the e-mails had started to get a little more friendly though still scarce, gotta get back onto being patient with her and worrying about myself instead.