Frank - You mentioned your previous depression. Well, your post sounds like you are slipping that way again.
I'm not denying that piecing is hard, or that WASs sometimes don't do a good enough job of addressing our pain when they return - I'm living that life. BUT - beyond that, you sound depressed. And as we all know, depression colors one's world, and makes things seem bleaker than they are.
Please try to get some help with this before you fall down the rabbit hole of depression, okay?
