Long and bumpy road

[Startingover2]

OMG...I need to keep the NC.

He text'd earlier to say he was dropping off xmas gifts for me and kids. He got here and was slightly tipsy. Not bad, but I can tell he had been drinking. This was the first time I have actually seen him in almost 3 weeks.

We did the exchange and he went into the babys room. He looked rather sad. He started rubbing my stomach and saying how much he loved his daughter, blah blah blah. I just stood there. He then said he should be here. I said yes I agree.

Then it went into a conversation of me telling him he is emotionally gone, living a separate life and when I had to go to the hospital all alone that night something in me snapped. I need a stable life for me and my kids and he cannot provide that. He got angry and took off.

He then sent a text saying we don't see eye to eye but when baby is born things are going to be perfect but its not possible now. He was talking like he made the rules!

I was irritated and this is what I sent:
'We do see things different. I need a stable home and life for me and my kids. You want different. We are just fine and I have family and friends that have stepped in to see me through the rest of this pregnancy and birth. The one who will suffer is baby, but I am going to do my best to keep that from happening.'

He immediately called me and started literally screaming at me that I cannot keep him away from his daughter, that he is sick and tired of me [censored] talking him to my friends (I haven't, they just know the truth) and that when she is born he plans on being here as much as he can. He was more intoxicated than when I talked to him earlier. He was going off on me. I finally just hung up and he called over and over...then sent "dont you hang up on me. I will support my girl."

Nothing more.

OMG, I am looking at a lifetime of hell. He sure didn't like me telling him I don't want him around for the rest of the pregnancy and birth.

Need support here....I am weakening.