One foot in front of the other....

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Thanks Yoyo.. Im still struggling with W's lack of regard for her own child. THis OM must be something else if she is willing to hurt her child in order to be with him.

SHe knows how this is hurting D but she seems to think that D will eventually adjust just like all the other blended families have.

The only difference is that 2 months ago, she was with me and our D as a family again. Now she is with someone else trying to establish a family with OM.

I really wish I could just stop loving her and idealizing her. I go back and forth with my memories of her.. 1 minute thinking all the bad things she has done (abandoned family, lied, cheated, always out getting drunk) and the next minute I think about how she took care of me when I was sick, encouraged me to succeed in my job, held my hand when we walked in the mall.

I know her bipolar issues explain the huge mood swings but I know somewhere deep down, my W is there. I just cant see her now.


H4C