But I find myself NOT wanting to be around IC as much. I love my time with him, but it just acts as a reminder of what could happen. When I'm working, or grocery shopping or whatever...my mind is away from the worries. kwim? This is sooooo sad for me because I know, I know this hurts his feelings....even though he'll never let on like it does
I appreciate your frankness-- these are difficult subjecte.
Are you SURE this hurts his feelings? I get the idea that he wants y'all's (yes, that is a real word) life to be as normal as possible. You don't have to stick together every single minute... if both of you can get away and do the things you would normally be doing if the cancer weren't in the picture, there's nothing wrong with that. Why WOULD you want to think of the cancer every single minute? Your desire to get away from thinking about the disease does not mean you are being disloyal to IC, kwim?
