DR Chapter 2 - Think Small

[marc_d]

Hey everyone,
Well, I was luckily able to meet up with some friends last night to get my mind off of things, but one thing I forgot to mention was when we were together Saturday night she got a phone call but she ignored it. And not to much later she decided she wanted to go to bed so I left but I was thinking she wanted me to leave so she could use the phone.

Anyways, When i called her later that night, I asked her if she felt she had to wait for me to leave to use the phone and she said yes, because it was her friend Nadeem that called, but she didnt know who it was until after I left. Anyways, she called him and he invited her to a Knicks vs. Nets basketball game in the city because he had an extra ticket.

I know he is just her friend but I found out while on the phone with her that he broke up with his girlfriend and I know he told my GF he had feelings for her over aa year ago, but eventually took it back, and I think thats because he was shot down by my GF. I still dont trust him and I hate it when she see's him.

When we talked on Saturday, she told me how she just is enjoying hanging out with friends without responsibilties right now. She said that when I would be with her and her friends in the past she felt like she needed to focus on me and ignore her friends, which I understand because I felt the same but it didnt bother me as much. I guess this fact proves that she isnt out looking for some new man in her life now.

DAMNIT!! I feel like screaming! Im so confused and frustrated! WHY?! I am dying to call her and ask her about the basketball game on Sunday but I also partially feel like I should wait to hear from her, but Im also scared that I may have scared her off with our talk we had this weekend.

I know we steered clear of discussing working on our relationship but Im still afraid I said something wrong. I wish I could read her damn mind.

Oh, one more thing. Does anyone remember the movie situation? How she seemed upset when I saw The Last Samurai without her, and she said she wasnt mad I saw it without her because she knows I need to do things without her, but she was thinking more of WHO did I see it with. I guess she thought I was going with some girl.

I dont know why she would think that because I dont even have any girl friends. At least she is still jealous. Sorry to ramble. Its a habbit of mine. I dont even let my therapist say much when we have our sessions.

I was just wondering if there is anyone out there that would'nt mind trading emails with me? I just feel that sometimes I cant always get the support Im looking for here for a few days or a week and I was thinking if someone doesnt mind, maybe i can email them asking for opinions and so on. If you are interested, my email is [e-mail] . Thanks!