That was a very moving post frank. I could have written that except you still have your W and I do not.
You know me, I could go "line by line" and talk you up; point out all that negative thinking. But as my friend IamTJ used to tell me: look at what you wrote and do a rewrite. Make it positive.
I don't need to tell you how to do that. Please do it when you are ready.
Much of what you wrote is what I am feeling, so please don't feel bad for feeling it.
Hurt is hurt. Just b/c we feel hurt does not mean the "little boy" is running things. Men hurt too.
And yes, we process the hurt, absorb it. But some of the hurt remains. Like scar tissue after a major operation - it may require another operation years later to remove some more of it - never get it all. Plus we were never the same after the first operation - corrected that ear infection but the hearing loss is always there.
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I just want to get out of this current life I'm in. I want the pain to go away.
