Help.. H has lost it!!!!

[ACJ]

Lisa the support is there 24/7 if you need it. I did once send you my phone number but if you have lost it and want it again all you have to do is ask.

[LisaLost]

Well the devil certainly has it in for my family and me. H is in the middle of a freak out again. he just doesn't deal well with the guilt I think, but who knows- I made him leave here. The kids are at grandparents and he was getting verbaally abusive- He broke our home phone to bits and hurt my arm and hand trying to get my cell phone. he stormed out afterwards. I am scared. I can't keep doing this. he is still in the throes of whtaver is going on MLC or whatever but i have been getting scared of him becoming more physically violent. I can't have him arrested b/c he is my only income- right now he his doing day labor just to bring money in everyday. I am so glad the kids weren't home

I just don't know what to do from here- I have tried everything and it seems like he is trying but something has just got ahold of him

Just wondering outloud here- I hate this soap opera life we all here seem to lead- sux doesn't it

love,Lisa

[deb13]

Lisa,

I am so sorry you are having to go through all of this. I was there once myself and I know how much it hurts....physically, emotionally, and mentally. Please be careful! No one should have to put up w/ abuse of ANY kind. You have to do what is best for your children, yourself, and your safety.

Deb

[LisaLost]

Thanks Deb- I just don't know where this is coming from- He has been getting help off and on and he seems to be trying but.. I just don't know-

[palgal]

Any idea what made him freak out?
Does he do drugs?
If you have any places for abused women and kids in your area they would be able to offer help and how to deal with freak outs.

[Virtually_Handsome]

I do not like this at all! Lisa, I think you need to at least get a plan in place for if there is a recurrence, or worse. Know who to call, where to go, etc. I'd contact places now, and get advice. I'd think you could be anonymous for now, but you need to be ready. Even if he "doesn't mean it", he can do a lot of damage. PLease be careful!

Jeff

[LisaLost]

Hey has done this off and on for years. He is trying to get off of pot now,but that is all Iknow of

I am ready to file myself. I don't think this will work I have changed in these past 2 and half years and he hasn't. Part of me feels like I need to give him another chance but I am truly getting shafted here when I really think about it, My life is getting wasted and so is my kids-

I feel like a failure

I tried, '
I can't keep on

[ACJ]

Lisa YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!

I didn't know before now that he smokes pot. This makes all his recent behaviour fall into place. Pot rewires the brain when you take over a sustained period (and sometimes when you don't). From you described sounds like his brain is pretty rewired to me. You say he has done this off and on for years. Try to remember if this was also at times when he was trying to withdraw from the pot. It could be very significant. Sounds to me like you need to throw a drugs worker into the pot of help that your H is getting.

Please be careful.

[LisaLost]

He has smoked pot since he was like 18 and he is 33. He is a freak it- has to have it- May be a resaon but he won't admit that pot is addicting in that bad of a fashion. I truly don't know.

Just a mess- it is not easier when they come home that is for sure!!

Alison- what do you know about seraquel? I hope I spelled it right

Thanks
Lisa

[LisaLost]

He has smoked pot since he was like 18 and he is 33. He is a freak it- has to have it- May be a resaon but he won't admit that pot is addicting in that bad of a fashion. I truly don't know.

Just a mess- it is not easier when they come home that is for sure!!

Alison- what do you know about seraquel? I hope I spelled it right

Thanks
Lisa