I to thinking while reading some of the posts in JennyFs thread. 1. In our last "talk" H made some positive statements about me and us, but he doesn't want to move back or work on us. ie. H wants an intimate act that happened a couple of weeks ago to mean something. I believe that it did mean something but he doesn't want to admit it. THat would mean he still loves me and their is hope. H has never said he doesn't love me, but when I questioned him once he said "I did love you then." I think he is so afraid to admit he was wrong about us being over.
2. H has still told very few people about us. I finally told his mom this week and we have been S since the end of Oct. His Dad is the only family member H has told and that is because his dad figured it out. I think H is afraid of what people will think and say. I think H is still into keeping up appearances.
3. I know I don't want H back right this minute. I love him and I do want him back, but not until he is out of this black hole.
Ds are at a friend's house so I'm off to wrap Christmas presents. I am buying all of them and wrapping them because when I asked H he said do what we have always done.
I to thinking while reading some of the posts in JennyFs thread. 
