Thank you. It's just so hard to look past those feelings...I mean here we are, getting our marriage to a really good place for us and then to be hit with this. It's devestating to me...IC's back on his "joking, I'm indestructable, cancer's never met a mfer like me" attitude and I guess that is ok for him His way of dealing with this. Only he knows how he feels...I just see the strongest man I've ever been in contact with, and I see what and how this chemo just takes it out of him. 2 months! and we're talking about close to a year of this, along with an intensive leg operation after the 1st of the year..but again, only he knows how he feels and I know he has this inner reserve of strength that he is able to feed off of. I'm just scared Lill.
