Time for honesty & truth for a new beginning

[phbear316]

Jeanette

Yes, i am glad i went, now i feel like i am addicted to that hand salve. Going to start carrying it around with me. going to need one for work , one for home, one for the car etc .

I will go and see her soon for tea. Not sure about the next week or so, but you know what, if h does get on that plane next week, will go on thurs or maybe friday. I shall see. Crazy week next week. I absolutely plan to go after the new year. I will be out of that salve by then, that i am sure of.

I had a busy day, and guess what low and behold h calls me twice during the day, Neither time did I answer it, I was getting my hair cut and colored. (lord which i needed so bad) I call when i leave shop, h tells me every detail of his day and what he is doing for the rest of the day, what time he will be home, etc. Oh boy, guilty party of one your table is available. (do you see it too or is it just me?)

I had to get cards for my parents, etc. I struggled so long over getting a card for h, do i, don't i. Well i got a card, that says in the front we may not make it all the way to merry this year, but were still family. Inside says Were still holding each other up and sharing the love that always leads us back to good times.

Now I am in the state of do, or don't i give him the card. Do or don't i get him a gift. Now keep in mind that the gift would be a gift card to starbucks and barnes and Noble book store. I still want to get him a gift because its christmas, and i don't care if i do not get one back. I want to my heart wants to. Am i being stupid? And then what do i do for his birthday which is 1/6. This i will have to sit on for a while.

Am i being i don't know unrealistic about the gift cards. If he says he does not want them I will use them. I don't want to seem nieve or anything. I don't know I don't really care if he gets me even a card. I want to do this because it is christmas its better to give than receive.

Need your imput. Well here is the web site for the woman who makes the hand salves and her art work. If she does not ship. I will get some and mail it to you, the least i could do for you. http://www.dreamingdiva.com
http://www.lesliemontana.com -for her artwork

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bear