Well, it's finally over. I really tried for 4 plus years to DB but it was not meant to be.
At the end of this summer, I caught H in a parking lot with an ow. After that, I was able to confirm that the FF (co-worker) I always suspected was both an EA and PA. I filed the Monday after I caught him and I am trying to move forward with my own life now. I feel that my M did not have a chance with his untreated Alcoholism. The disease won.
According to the Buddha, praise and blame, gain and loss, pleasure and sorrow may "come and go like the wind," but happiness comes if you can "rest like a great tree in the midst of them all."