i try to do other stuff but I am the one home with the kids at night. I have to be home for them. I guess that's why it bugs me. But he did text me a couple of times while he was out in the evenings this week. No I never said anything to him about this. He just did it. When he comes over it is usually him who brings up the R talk. Somedays I am strong and then there are times like last night when it went horrible.
We were talking about X-mas and how I won't committ to anything and he really wants me to be at his parents with him. Well I am sick and not in the best frame of mind so the convo didn't go well. There was no fighting or yelling I was just way to emotional.
One minute he talks about us learning how to co-parent while living apart and then he talks about us being a family again. And this is all in a matter of a few minutes. I know there is finacial strain on him right now so I don't push the topic. Anyways he ended up leaving last night but texted me at about 11:30. He said he was out but he texted me until about 3:30.
It's so hard to know which direction to go in when he sends so many mixed messages. Right now it doesn't help that I am sick and it is Christmas. My emotions are all over the place right now.
Me:32 H: 34 T: 12 YEARS M: ALMOST 5 S: 8 D: 4 S: 14 (OTHER R) SEPERATED: 03/09/07 (but wanted to work on it) NEW SEPERATION: 27/11/07 (doesn't know what he wants) MOVED HOME 12/01/08 I'm acting as if this blue sky is never going to rain down on me....Sara Evans