f2b - keep posting here. Journal, use it to vent feelings, whatever. There is an amazing amount of wisdom and advice to be found on these boards. I'm sure someone here has been where you are now and can help.
do you have family or friends that would be willing to watch the kids one night while you have them? That would give you a little break in the week and allow you a chance to GAL, even if it's just going to the gym or taking awalk. something you do for you.
What are some of the reasons she gave for wanting the D? For wanting to end a 15 year R? What caused her to look for OM initially? I see a whole lot of i tried and tried and she just wanted out.... why? This may help you to take a good look at yourself and see where you can make some changes. Be especially honest with yourself here. if not, you are not only hurting yourself, but your M and kids as well. We've all made mistakes here and there and are all here to fix them.
good luck. hopefully with this bump, someone with a lot more experience or a similar sitch will chime in.
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