WAW does not want to try

[I_Wanna_Make_It_Work]

Let me add a few things about confidence (aka faith) - you are sorely lacking in it.

From you're first paragraph:
"I will have to try", "Hopefully", "try to understand", "if I can", "probably"

And all that lack of confidence/faith shows up in paragraph 2 - "I asked her if she wanted to go alone or if she wanted me to go with her..." Waw-p, she's your wife! You go. You don't ask. Act "as-if", because as-if is where you are right now. Married. Don't let this stymie your growth. She needs you to be a leader. Pick a direction. And stay the course. Show her you know what you want, God promises these things, and for as long as it takes, you will bust this D and love her.

On my whiteboard on my fridge, I wrote "No Winners, No Losers, No Time Limit". I'm sure you can guess what that's a reference to.

I'm no C. I'm a humble man who has been blessed with some wisdom, through experience. And though my W and I are 2300 miles apart - we communicate everyday and I'm "getting it" 14 months later.

Stay the course.