sounds like you're grabbing your "cojones" when it comes to your money. Atta girl!!!!
I'm sure he would do the same thing if he were the provider and the man of the house. you're taking care of everything even if he is at home. he's making you feel like crap. making you pay for everything. WTF! where are his "family jewels"????
take care of you first not him. he's a grown man. spend more time with your child than him. go out and enjoy the holidays even if he's not around. your child is seeing you stressed out, how do you think he/she feels? kids know when a parent is neglecting them. you don't have to force your husband to stay home if he doesn't want to. that only makes him go out more.
what i don't understand is this. you say he's done this before and that he's never been an actual "family man" like you wanted him to be. what makes you think he'll change now? he cheats. he lies. he's a bum! he probably makes you feel less of yourself (i'm bored, you're not the same, etc etc)...what about YOU? you are a strong woman taking care of your child/finances/work/family. who's taking care of you in all of this?
Have faith in God. He is the only one that can guide you in the right direction. If your intuition tells you to stop worrying about your husband and move on, then so be it. you don't want to live like this for too long, do you? don't you want someone to take care of you sometimes? someone to actually make YOU feel important. someone to love you for who YOU are. you can't fix a broken stick. if he's always been this way then he's not ever going to change for you. the only thing you can do is LIVE.
love what you have now. love that you and your child have your health, a home, food, a job. this man is not the only man in the world. in fact, i know there's someone out there that's just right for you. you may not know of him just yet, but i'm sure God has his reasons. you have to find it in yourself - trust in Him always. by hanging on to this heartbreaking marriage, you may be blocking something wonderful! don't be sad during christmas. christmas is the most wonderful holiday. without the birth of Christ, where would we be? don't let this person ruin your happy moments with your child. maybe you could spend time with your family. be around people that care about you. don't let his negativity keep you from moving forward.
i'm sending nothing but love here. i don't like to see good hard working mothers suffer over a man with issues.
especially one that doesn't provide for his family!!!
STAY POSITIVE.
me = 34 H = 35 kids = 3 worst day of my life: march 24, 2006 he filed: april 20 Present day: Wedding ring on, he's looking forward to another baby, taking day by day, we talk about our feelings whenever possible.
