Please help--Need advice!!!

[Patrick325]

I understand about GAL and I agree that I should do something to make me happy. The only problem is that I was kind of using this trip as a way to make her curious about me. I really don't care if I go, especially if it's by myself. But the problem is that I told her I was going, then I told her it wasn't set in stone, then I invited her last night but she turned me down. She said it didn't matter what I do becuase she doesn't care what I do anymore. I told her to let me know if she changes her mind. Should I still go or change my plans and not spend the money?? I could spend the time off fishing or whatever but will it make it seem that she can control me?? I hate playing these games but this whole thing is a game but our marriage is on the line and I really want to save it! I think after all of this I will be able to do anything because this is the hardest thing I have ever done.