Maybe not too complicated to understand

[Michael Mc C]

Thanks, I'm thinking it will be a great year as well!

W was checking on school closings this morning and I imagine she saw the date on the website and said "By the way, happy birthday." I said "Thank you". It's good, anyway, that she recognized the date.

Before leaving to drop the kids off at school she asked if I wanted to go to her friend's house (used to be my friend too...) but I told her that I had people coming over for my birthday. She said "Oh, okay. What do you want for your birthday anyway?"

I said "Hmm, a card would be nice."

I'm not really sure how I'm feeling about this right now. I don't feel upset or disappointed. In all honesty I don't think I'm feeling much of anything besides validation that she's just not "here". My kids, family, friends, in-laws and even co-workers are happy for me and have wished me well for my birthday over the past couple of days (as have my DB'ing buddies). Her apparent indifference towards such things is something I have come to expect. I think this is a sign of at least partial detachment. The amount of time she 'wastes' on-line still gets under my skin - I don't feel insulted, it's more disappointment that this is who she has become. I can't wait to get past these feelings and become further detached. I keep thinking that detachment should be a choice but regardless of how much I decide not to let it bother me, it still does. Any suggestions?

In a way it's sad I guess. For 20 years she's been the highlight of my days and now she's a housemate with whom I have very little in common.

Anyway, enough of that!! The corned beef is cooking, the house smells like onions and I'm sneaking out of work early. Should be a great night!