Craig - I'm following along here. I think Cog is spot on. But he usually is. The anger toward your W is natural at first. For me it was a brief period of anger and then months of disappointment. But as time goes on, you do learn to accept their character issues lovingly.
One of the great scriptural lessons for me on this subject was the story of Noah. No, not the ark. But later in the book, there comes a point where Noah gets drunk and is laying in his tent naked. One son sees, runs out and expoits what he saw. He ends up being cursed forever. Noah's two other sons walk in backwards, so as to not see him, and lay a blanket over him. That's our job as husbands. To turn a blind eye to our W's shortcomings and cover their nakedness.
I am my W's biggest defender in all of this. I defend her to my family. To our common friends. And to anyone who seeks to lay all the blame for the seperation on her. I think COG wrote it. You have to love her the 1C13 way. Once you can get to that point, there is nothing she can say or do that really matters. And how can you not reciprocate Love when someone allows it to flow so freely?
Me - 43 and She -36. No kids. Married 7 yrs - Together 14 yrs