Time for honesty & truth for a new beginning

[phbear316]

rcr

I expect nothing from h right now, nothing to my benefit that is. Its all about him and ow for now.

I am in a time right now, i am greatful for the time he is here.

Trust me there was no raised voices or anger in my voice on sat. The opportunity came up, i had to say what i said. H needs to try to understand since h has not had the balls to talk to me about us, i had to tell him were i stood. If he heard great, if not, i cannot put his ears back on, he has to. For all my h tries to control the situation like you (meaning me) can't tell me what to do with or without ow. H cannot get the nerve up to tell me he is leaving on tues. Big man right. Not

And i don't expect alot of anything. I decided against i'm sure other peoples judgement i am going to get h two gift cards and put them in his stocking. If he does not want them, trust me i can use them. I will still give him a card for xmas. That is it. My heart is just not in it.

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bear