All I can hold on to is myself, kids and this site

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Before I go to dark, myH told me 'I miss you sometimes. I will think about us when I have time.. I have too much things in my mind and am confuesed'. He also said " you look great. Your face is glowing" I said 'thank you, Proactive is working for me' which is the truth but I didn't know what to say.........


He has told me 'i will never come back to you' for many time in the past 10 weeks and this is a big change... don't know what to do. Half of me wants to go dark and half of me thinking 'DBing working??!! '

In two weeks, I will be heading home (oversea) for about 3 weeks. So, the time of being apart will be similar to going DARK. I will not see him and probably will call him for kids. I will just try to have a distance from him for now and try to protect myself from getting hurt by his selfish action....

Tonight, my in-laws asked me to go to a trip with them next summer. Family re-union and visiting several places about 10 days. The plan sounds very good and I am interested in going with them. MyH, who knows if he says he is going or not. He probably make the decision the day before. So, I guess I have a plan with his family without him at this moment. I really don't know how this situation play on DBing. lots of ???????
Beauty