WAW staying, I'm leaving to give her space..(2)

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W came over w/kids and stayed for dinner. It was great, I would have never expected this situation only a few weeks ago. Got a hug/kiss before dinner, mood was very light and cheery. W mentioned the 'possibility' of me coming home after 60 days & working on our R/M (if I stay the course). Conversation with W sounded very much like she wants to work on R/M (I can tell W is still a little reluctant/untrusting, though). W stated she was working on a list of 'conditions' for my return. She seemed pretty enthusiastic about telling me about some of the items. There was nothing she listed that I thought was unfair or unjust (some of the items W spoke of were things I wanted as well).

I tried not to act too 'clingy' or 'needy'. I was just very cheerful (for obvious reasons). I gave her a kiss/hug goodbye when she left and boy did they feel good (W looked good too). W will be picking kids up in AM to take them to school. I didn't want her to go but I didn't say it (I think W actually wanted to call off work and stay, too).

I have to be very careful not to act too much like everything is 'ok'. It does seem that the healing has begun but I don't want our R/M to stop moving in a positive direction. I still need to keep working on ME, I have to finish the tasks that I committed to complete before I am ready to return. I need to ensure I have the necessary tools/skills to prevent my past mistakes or it would be a waste of my time (and W's).

I truly feel like some sort of miracle is unfolding before my eyes. I still do not understand the sudden change in W's actions. I was hoping for change but it happened so suddenly and so quickly that I'm still having a hard time accepting it. I'm still worried that my situation could reverse itself just as quick and I'll be right back where I was with W a few weeks ago.

I think COG (and others on this fourm) were called by a higher power to guide/lead me back to the light. DB is not the only place where this is happening. Like I said in earlier posts, some strange things have happened/are happening to me lately. I can only explain them as 'signs', that I was/am trying to be told something. Well, I'm listening! I will update tomorrow. (I have a smile on my face and warmth in my soul tonite)