Miss IC's little red wagon

[MJontheMend]

I have a question for the women on the BB who self-describe as more LD than HD. Do you experience strong physical arousal from "causing" a man to get an erection or simply sensing that a man does have an erection? The reason I am asking this is that I would say that this is the "root" motivation of most of my "monkey" sexual behavior. Let me explain how it works with me. Let's say you start MBing from "cold" and then eventually you get to the point where you are about 10 seconds away from orgasming. I very frequently get to that point of arousal just from sensing that a man has an erection. I think that is why I am so round-heeled. It's like I have this internal tuning fork that automatically starts vibrating in sync with male arousal and I actually have less self-control than a man but maybe just because I never learned to practice controlling myself. The monkey's "goal" is to turn myself on by turning on a man but I rarely give her conscious permission to get started. It just kind of happens.

I should also note that it has very little to do with sexual validation. It's not like I'm thinking "Wow, I must be really hot because this guy has a hard-on for me.". My response is happening at a level way more primitive than ego-gratification. I can start to have the response even if I'm not attracted to a man but then my revulsion response pushes it down.