not a peep

[NikB]

Sounds like you're doing pretty well overall Trixi. None of this is easy!!

H wants to celebrate Christmas before he leaves with DD and myself. I said I would do it, but there is a part of me that is saying "WTF? Are you crazy?!" How am I going to "celebrate" with the person who is ripping out my heart? My mom seems to think it sends a bad message to DD. That I am telling her it is "ok" to be treated badly. ...Am I being 'treated badly' or is it that H and I just want different things?

I say go with your gut on this one - if you don't want to celebrate it with him, then don't!! It doesn't matter if he's treating you badly.. it matters what you want and need for yourself.

(and incidentally yes, I think telling you he wants to date but still stringing you along is bad treatment... but the first part, going with your gut, is more important).