Thanks Bruce, I just read my post, boy do I sound pathetic...I know you are right..I just feel so controlled..for two years I have been going along with all his plans...I moved out of the house, etc,....and now in an expensive area and the list goes on...he paid house payments late and now my credit is trashed, I wonder if I could even rent if I wanted too, I must for the next 6 months get my credit on track or longer who knows...I am feeling weird today like fine hurry up and get your D, boss around your OW , the problems is I see me in my son, my son is trying so hard to fill H hole, trying to be everything to him....ughhhh, my son told me today he lost his lunch box that was from my H work with a company logo and h got mad...son wanted to go on his work web site and replace it.....oh my gosh, over a lost lunch box..that is one example....and i look at my son and see oh my gosh that was me..always trying to make every thing better , be enough....but nothing is ever enough...
