I all I dont post very often , but read alot. We are in the process of the Divorce. I belive he has retained an attorney now, I did so last summer after he filed and would nto speak to me about any child support , basically just wanted me to go away. Well I dod so many things wrong since 2005 we have gone through all of our savings to live seperate and run two households and I got the time a space speech followed a year later, by I made my choice, you did nt take care of yourself.....and I meet the OW las year on Christmas day in my home and wow, she has one thing on me , she is a twig, I am average and maybe a but round, but fairly well put together and 46 and I can still turn a few heads ok not as many as in my younger days, but I am no middle aged frump...although I wont lie and say I dont feel like used shoes....thrown in the garbage, ok enough of the pity party....
I am getting all these nasty emails now about bills and finances...for 2 plus years i have been telling him we cant afford to go on like this, and maybe now he realizes it....who knows, he has basicaly been the runner who does not want to talk to me, sees me and cant wait to get away....mostly this part all started since me meeting the OW, before that he seemed really torn. Meeting the OW was not planned and I stopped by our home to pick something up and low and behold they were there....a few months after that I called her H or XH, who then outed her affair to friends and family and the day after that my H filed for D and since then worse and wors very distant. I belive they are very much together at this point....here is the kicker...he once introduced our son to her and said she was a friend....I told son well I wish that was true but she is more than a friend, son called his dad on it and he retracted and has kept her in hiding ever since and tells son there is nothing going on...i will probably never belive this is the man I married, but I am very weary now, and want peace and my life. I feel like we are D and yet he controls everything. Son and I moved to an area H wanted us to , house was put up for sale and has not sold...now I am thinking i need to think of my future and save whatever is left financially. Our monthly expenses do not make sense to continue....we have mediation on Jan 10 ..I wonder how long wil it take to get everything settled....I want to make my own decisions now...making decisions based on him coming out of this has got me in a big mess financially...
I wonder if I am going into MLC, I dont think so, but maybe finally in reality???? Should i just ignore his nasty emails, I told him today talk to the attorney it is out of my hands and he said his attorney told him he probably has justification not to pay car insurance, I thought that had to wait until the court r lawyers worked it out. There are many things that I am paying that wer both of ours..ughhh Gosh, I wanted to be a stander..but you know I dont think I have it in me...I want peace, I am a good person , who was loyal and hard working and a good Mom and wife...I dont think I can continue, the way he wants out of his financial obligations is a huge turn off to me....ok why or why when he had OW was i willing to stand???? This is for iron people and I am not made of he right stuff..any advice??
