It's a long time since I was in a state of reconciliation but I still remember how hard it was. I didn't have all the worries of a new baby, a redundant husband and although in retrospect the various OW were probably there I didn't know about them at the time. Don't be hard on yourself Lisa everyone finds this a tough time.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15