I appreciate all your insights about counseling and "just do it" sex but I'm starting to realize that is just no where near the main issue. It's me. I cannot forgive. I clearly don't want to. I can't. It's been over 3 years and I am worse off in some ways than before. I've tried. I just can't.
It's not that he doesn't want to have sex with me as much as I don't want to have sex with him. I have no desire to "just do it" with him so...I usually don't. I still want sex though. That's the problem. Well, part of the problem, really I want a man who hasn't hurt me so much. It's as simple as that.
