Pregnant and abandoned #3

[phbear316]

Blindsided

I know the pain you are feeling, your H is gone, your having a baby, you feel totally lost and helpless.

You have to start bringing positives into your life, heart and mind. With great suggestions from folks here, try to do things they suggest, like listen to upbeat music, (love that crazy bitch song) I find reading, doing word find puzzles, listening to podcasts like Joel Osteen, I love his voice, very soothing southern drawl. Passes the time. You will always be thinking about you H and situation, but i find keeping busy moves the time. Maybe church even this weekend. I went the first this past sunday after too long of an absence, I am looking forward to going this sunday.

Do you have an Ipod or mp3 player? Itunes has free and great meditation podcasts on there. I am a total disney fan, I download free podcasts and listen to them, close my eyes and imagine i am walking down main street. You could just listen on your computer also.

Watch cooking shows, maybe even make something you saw on tv. My goal next week when my h leaves to go to fla, is I'm going to bake cookies. Do i need to eat them, no, should I no. But bring them to work, give them to family. Do something that makes you feel good.

Now you have a gift from god comming in the early summer, I'm sure you need to get a room ready, paint colors, etc. Do you know how to knit or crochet? If not why not take a class at your local michaels or AC Moore. They are about $15. Make a beautiful baby blanket for you and your baby to snuggle in. I had started a crochet blanket last year, and did not finish it. I restarted it after H dropped the second bomb on me in Sept, It felt so good to finish that blanket, and see how I put my mind to it and i finished it. I have bought more yarn and I have started another one. Don't care what i do with it, but it keeps me busy at night.

I know your pain, you will do anything to get your H back, to fix it all. Right now you like I have no control over him. You need to keep YOU happy. We can only control ourselves, for both your h and my h are off in another universe, one we cannot reach them at right now.

Be strong, you can do this
phbear