Fooled again

[LuvMyHusband]

Hi everyone,
I am feeling very discouraged today. The last few days have been awful. D8 has been very sick. She collapsed on me yesterday. Took her to Urgent Care. She has pneumonia and a low oxygen count. The doctor said we caught it in time. Another couple of days they probably would have hospitalized her. I am sick too, don't know what I have. No voice, sore throat and very tired.

I lost it with H yesterday. I know, definitely not dbing. He says he's concerned about D8, if he is, he certainly doesn't show it. We got into it big time, hurtful things said on both sides. No matter WHAT we argue about he always brings it back to what I did. I was feeling so depressed last night that I said that the only thing that would ever convince him how sorry I really was if I died. I am sick, discouraged and feel totally hopeless.

Jen, I will get that book but won't be going out for a while with D8 and I being so sick. My H says he is confused and not sure about anything. I don't understand it at all. Until I can get out would you mind sharing more from the book? It sounds really good.

Anyway, right now I feel like my M is pretty much over and that my H has just been messing me. I feel like a yoyo (yoyo), when he's here it seems like we will work and then he leaves and he's distant again.

Need some encouragement today.