W still angry with me, but the intensity lessens

[Lanzo]

Heim,

I was ready to quit, I didn't do it for effect I really was ready to go, part of me still is.

However now I'm fighting the opposite emotion where I want to get near her smother her share a bed with her. But I know this is not the time.

I pray that this is the breakthrough that I needed, but I can still see W lost in that wilderness, OM is a bigger factor than I thought. All I can do is leave her to find her own way out hopefully leaving him behind.

If I'm honest the OM scares me. Not physically but interms of the length he's been around, is their bond too strong to break ?

I need to get back to my DB best, forget outside influence and work to gain a better me.