I will try to be more patient. Things weren't screwed up overnight they won't be fixed overnight. I've since shredded all our home and cell phone records. Asked her to change the cell phone online passwords. out of sight out of mind. I've also promissed myself NO MORE SNOOPING!!! I hate the feeling something is up, and I can allways find something if I look hard enough, but It's really only torturing myself. I can't let it have that power over me. Who is she on the phone with? who is she chatting with online? these things are controlling me and obviously making things worse. I just need to let go. But it feels like there is a fine line between letting go and giving up. Well, maybe the line is larger than I think but I guess it just scares me a little given whats happened in the past. It's a huge leap of faith.
