All Hope is lost/Help - Part 2

[Evie]

In light of the card that H sent me yesterday, I held off sending the letter to H. I know after the emails yesterday that H won't be contacting me so much and I don't want to push him further away. He knows its a tough week for me. I texted him late last night and thanked him for the flowers. He txted right back saying he hoped I had kept them.

When i received the card from H, my initial reaction to his message was one of hope. I interpreted it to mean that h realised that he had put work before his family and he now realised what his priorities truely were and he was going to change things, but it would take time. I thought with patience, PMA, good memories and good DB that in time his feelings would maybe change towards me as well?.

Righly or wrongly I showed the card to a close colleague this morning and she said H sounds very final, he has made his mind up to move on without me and by implying 3 times that he would be making changes without actually telling me what they were he was been very cruel.

I haven't replied or asked H what he meant in the card and I don't know whether to or not?

I would welcome any feedback - please help me. I feel very low this week, i'm dealing with a lot, i just want the roller coaster to stop for a while and let me get off to rest..

Thank you everyone for your support on this board, i know i would not have got this far without your support.

X Eve