NikB's latest update (#23)

[NikB]

Sheeesh.. losing my mind lately!! Just way too busy at work plus being sick.

Anyway finally got some time to read/post, so I'll reply first.

ST
Oh sure, make me regret the whole vacation/top down thing. I'm teasing...

The flu's been going around and I was amazed I HADN'T caught it yet so I guess I was lucky I got a minor case.

Thanks for the thoughts. I really did feel good about "getting through" being sick without needing him. It's a small thing in the grand scheme of life but it really FEELS better so I hope it's truly healthier.

About the room... I know, I know.. I'm so "all or nothing" that I think it's paralyzing me. Like I can't do it til the room is perfect and closet is in and clothes are moved. And yeah, it's all fear-based excuses. At least I see it right??

Enjoy the excuse to get new sexy lingerie though!!

sara
Global warming?? Wow.. I'm usually in support of all the "why D sucks" articles but even *I* think that one is reaching a bit.

H
Thanks! Not 100% but back to oh, 90% or so.. I'm sure a couple days will take care of the other 10%. Olive oil is OK in chicken soup.. just not so much in cake!! Though I hear it turned out OK there, too. You're sweet, thanks.

f21
Wow, WARM jello?? Hmmm... I may have to try that out. Does make sense it might coat your tummy some. I had some kind of tropical punch/cherry type flavor and it was good. Lime or Lemon yeah, might be painful on an already upset stomach.

Glad you enjoyed the journaling! Me too, of course.. love it when I can journal good stuff.

It's so weird when I look at places.. I get this little thrill of "what could be" followed often by a major fear. I kinda remember you thinking that too - "I could move to San Diego!" I think it's a good and normal thing to daydream a bit like that.

Definitely working on both the dreams and the boundaries - and appreciate your input and everyone else's to help me on that path. Oh my gosh we're so much alike - I keep thinking if I do research that "one more thing" that I'll have THE answer! I'm sure I've shared it before but my dad calls it "analysis paralysis" (I'm sure he borrowed that from somewhere). I am GREAT at researching, not so great at realizing when my "research" is complete and it's time to act.

Me??? A small town girl??? Wow.. maybe, though. Thinking so more and more, the more experiences I have.

Thanks again. ((((f21))))

jak
Thanks!! Hugs back to ya, too.

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Very brief journaling....

So yesterday/last night I worked in between rush bathroom trips (sorry if TMI!) until almost 9:30. Felt a bit better today but worked another 12ish hours. Yikes!! OK for awhile but I gotta get this back in control, it's just way too much. Ended up canceling all my GAL plans this week just to catch up at work.

Good news is I'm supposed to have tomorrow and Friday off so hopefully it'll truly be break time instead of half break, half working.

By Sunday by goal is to have the tree up, decorations up, and all gifts either bought or at least planned.. maybe too ambitious but trying to get all that done.

Tomorrow is H's birthday and I have no idea what's up. I did make him a cake (no DB-H, did not use olive oil). It's a spice cake and smells really good!! STILL up in the air on the gift thing - think I will probably get something race-related though.

Some good positives and no real negatives tonight... H asked me to help rub a knot out of his back which I did.. and he was generally really sweet towards me. Maybe he secretly loves me for my backrubs.. . I set his coffee up on the timer for tomorrow - something I used to do daily but stopped after the last bomb - he noticed and thanked me for setting it. Some parts I had ordered for my car also arrived (fun stuff I got with my bonus $). He got home before me so he got the package and he was all excited about installing the new parts, said it would be fun. I had planned to pay a shop to do it but will let this one play out, I think.

I have the tomorrow daytime and Fri - Sun pretty planned already, so I should be good there - nice to have a packed weekend once again!! Tomorrow, well, it's only one day.. trying to have no expectations. Hope everyone's doing well. Will try to catch up now before bed time.