Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

Okay, here is a scary thing. I feel not horrible right now. I felt pretty strong earlier and felt like I could handle this. I don't need him to make me happy. However, I know that the reason I felt like this had to do with the fact that he text me. My issue is how do I keep from getting really low again when I don't hear from him for a few more days? It worries me that I haven't learned how to take that power out of his hands yet. I don't know if it's the hormones or what, but I can get really really low and down on myself.

He is a little boy. I think he prides himself on that, which is sad. He doesn't really man up to anything. I'm trying to hang in there.