Thank you I will try this site. I am trying to DB but it has been extremely hard for me. I am very impatient and back slide so much.
I had a long conversation tonight with WAW about our (my)child support meeting next week and this covo was amicable enough. Lots of other talk mainly R talk (bad, bad, bad back slides) and I wanted to know whether she could n't come back because of her guilt/regret/fear or whether she just did not want to as she was happy where she was.
Well you ask a silly question, you get the answer you don't want to hear right. Don't do it until she reaches out and then be very cautious. Don't do what I do, do as I say. Be stronger and more patient than I am.
We are heading for divorce right now in January/February but are likely to remain friends hopefully.
She likes it when I cut-up and when I look good and misses me sometimes and said she would be jealous if I was with someone (but would not understand why she would be) although she does not have a clue whether this would change anything for her as she has not crossed that bridge yet.
I told her that I am not dating until we are divorced and then it would not be until I was ready, unless it was a F**k Buddy or two. LOL
I have to DB for me, get on with my life and detach more. It is not over until it is over and that includes after divorce. The planets may align just right one day and we get back together.
How are you doing/feeling at the moment? I am sorry you are here. This is a great place for advice and support and there are some great, strong and courageous people here. I think all these people who are trying to save their marriage are very honourable but I wish nobody was here having to fight the good fight.
This site has saved me from going mad. Time helps and it does get easier. However, I won't get over it for years and maybe will only get beyond it not over it. I know that it was hard for my WAW to leave but she has someone else and I am the one left behind. That is hard for me to accept I suppose.
When do you come back to the US and what line of work will or are you trying to get back into?
How is it communicaton wise with your wife? For me it is hard to talk to WAW because of how I feel still but I think that is better for me than no contact from her (because it is like going dark but she is going dark on me).
I have tried going dark and either I did not do it for long enough or she did not care about talking to me or was not missing me enough, I dunno.
Please tell me what you have been doing to DB and let me know if you have been experiencing any baby steps or not.
I wish you all the success in the world and feel for you man! Apart from my Father's death when I was 22 years old, this is the toughest thing that I have had to go through.
