Don't worry, everyone. I can see what W is doing, but it still hurts -- and it is a very sad indication as to how far apart we still are and how unlikely the situation is to improve.
Thanks, for the hugs, Lwb.
I just don't understand this desire, conscious or not, to inflict pain on me -- continually. I know I shouldn't expect much, if anything at all, from W. But she just would not acknowledge to me directly that it was my birthday. She reminded my 2 S's to tell me that when I talked to them on the cellphone today, for which I am grateful. But then she left me this irritated voicemail while I was talking with my father this evening -- she snidely told me that I had to remember to tell all of my friends and family that they should call me at my cellphone number instead of the land line at our house. She complained that she kept getting interrupted by other people calling while she was already trying to talk to her cousin on that line. (I wanted to call W back and tell her, "Life sure sux for you, don't it!")
I told my mother last night, after she called to wish me happy b'day, that I was done with W until she starts waking up, if ever. I have gotten to the point where I don't care anymore. The person that W is right now is just too abhorrent to try to have a life with. W is so hellbent on proving the old adage, "Like Mother, Like Daughter."
Like I told Jarhead in his thread, I also told my mother that because I know that the time it will take to properly heal is on the order of four years or so, I am facing being single for quite a while. On the other hand, there's no harm in leaving the door open for W to return, at least until I have had the time to heal. It appears to be highly unlikely for her to return, but it doesn't hurt to keep the avenue open anyway.
So, it's time to redouble the effort to let go and let God. To detach, GAL, focus on me, etc. I am not going to be snowed again by W and distractions in the name of "improving communication", not while they're really one-sided.
I am in the process of writing a revised Separation Agreement. I will at some point present this to legal advice.
