WAW does not want to try

[wawpioneer]

Wow! Assume the worst and forgive that. Can I do that? I think that I can but I would have to think and pray on it. I really don't have a choice because I really love her and need her in my life. I think at some time during our R it will come up but for now I have decided not to bring up the OM or the R at all until she is ready. One day she will bring it all up if she is going to commmit and then we can talk about it if she wants. Until then I am going to explore and pray for for the true meaning of forgiveness. I brought home a single rose today and told her that I was sorry for not being very patient. We hugged and she said it was OK.

So...I guess we will run with this at her pace. It took her nearly 3 months just to decide if she was going to move back in and it is going to take a while for her to decide if she truly is going to commit. Until then...I also will learn the true meaning of patience. Today the C talked about patience. A friend talked to me about patience today and how I asked her for it early when she said she wanted a D. Then, we talked about patience tonight in bible class. I think I am getting the message. Sometimes we have to be hit over the head with a hammer to get it.

Thanks I_W, Heim, and S.T. for the wisdom. I will work on forgiving and patience. I will keep posts coming and let all know how the DB is progressing. I just want to be the best H I can be while she is letting me. We will see if I can do that. I do need more GAL activities though. Any suggestions for a guy in a small town?