Ok, end of the story - H emailed me from work which he has never done before since he's been over there. Said he was not mad, that it took him by surprise when I said that, but that he was not going to make a big deal out of it since he's so looking forward to getting home to the boys & I in the next few days. Ended the email w/ I love you & miss you dearly.

Ok, another lesson learned. I know I have some soul searching to do as far as why I am still so insecure in myself and our M when H has been nothing but committed since he left and I also need to remember the 48 hour rule AND how very lucky I am to have this 2nd chance and I need to quit trying to blow it.

Thanks for all the support guys -- I was truly freaked out and upset about that whole thing. Not normally a drama queen, however, after the feelings during the whole D sitch, sh!t, I got scared today!

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10