Yoyo, NCB, Hope,.... thanks for the encouraging words..
Hope, how did the test go?
Friday after the settlement meeting I picked up my girls and had them for the weekend. My X-MIL watched my DD's for me, she seemed to not want this D as much as I did not want it. In fact when I dropped my girls off at her house that morning my MIL couldn't talk to me without crying. I understood how she felt......
Like I mentioned earlier I had my girls this past weekend. Friday night there was a family night at my church so my girls and I went. From there D5 went home to her best friends house for an overnight. D2 and I were able to just hangout and have some one on one time. Saturday we stayed home. Then Sunday we went to church and then to my friends to watch some football.
I did not have my girls Monday, but I did get to spend the evening with them last night. I brought them to the mall to get their pic's taken. I did get a couple with the three of us so I can replace the family pic's that I now have up on my walls. I figure if my girls want a pic of their mom in their room I am fine with that. I will not keep her pic's up around the house and fool myself into thinking this is only a bad dream(wouldn't that be nice if this was just a bad dream....).
Tonight, I am out GAL....actually I am still at work....I am working/waiting for a X-mas party to start, then I will be GAL. Now that I have a set routine for when I will have my girls and when I do not.....I plan on getting a more regular work-out routine going. I gained my appetite back a while ago and need to keep the pounds off in a healthy way.
.....Changing subjects on all of you...... This whole D thing is and the process has been weird...almost surreal. I know that this has happened....but I think life has been so busy that I'm still waiting to be hit with another 2x4 for another round of emotional pain from this D. I don't know...I hate that this has happened...but at the same time I know life will go on....I'm just not sure how it is going to look or who might be in my life in the future. I feel like I am rambling tonight....so I am going to cut myself off.....
