Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

How do you find patience? I have a terrible time with this. I sit there sometimes and go through the script in my head: he left me for OW, he doesn't love me, how could he do this, why won't he come home, how come i mean nothing, this is hopeless, etc etc. It kills me every time. I get really depressed because I can not see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like the more time he is away, the more he pulls away from loving me again, and gets closer to OW. It is really hard to have FAITH and PATIENCE. REally hard.