Pregnant and abandoned #3

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He initiates the texts. I try not to call or text unless I absolutely have to. But, I can't help that I feel like after all these years I have been reduced to someone he once loved and no longer does. I don't really know that that is the case. But, when he doesn't call me or text me for days I feel pretty insignificant. He been gone 6 weeks. There is no indication that he will ever come home. I can't even get him to care about me and his baby more than that stranger he moved in with (OW). I seem to have a really hard time because I feel as though he chose her over us. I know that everyone says that it has nothing to do with her. But, if she weren't in the picture, I know he would be home and we could have fixed what was broken. I feel like I lost my chance at having the family I dreamed of. He didn't even give us a chance to have that. When I don't hear from him I just feel like he is off caring for her and her children instead of caring for me, his wife that is carrying his only child, his first child. It makes me sad, not just for me, but for him (because I know what he is going to lose) and for our child (because I don't ever want them to know that he chose NOT to be a family). It scares the heck out of me.