Jak,
I think you're highly frustrated by the lack of connection you desire in the M. You think you're stuck in this situation, and are frustrated that your efforts to get your H's attention hasn't worked. He's holding on tightly to old patterns.

I think you will reach a point where you will no longer be able to tolerate the status quo. You will feel forced to do something you won't want to. Storm clouds are gathering.

This M needs the "perfect storm." Your H needs to be awakened to see how unhappy you are, and that the M is in danger.

CL

CL 53 W 54
M 20 yrs.
03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL
10-14' Piecing

"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."

----Tao Te Ching