Red, I second the comment to calm down. You are putting a LOT of pressure on yourself and trying to hard to make everything perfect. Don't send the email. Don't do anything. Just keep things lighter... Even though he's not returning from combat, he's probably stressing about the reunion, too. Try to lighten up a bit, even though you don't feel like it. Talk less. Don't fall over yourself explaining things. Cool down... try to take off some of the pressure.
