Funny - my "self esteem" is reasonably intact and I am also pretty sure I could find a decent, well adjusted person who would be happy to fcuk me on a regular basis. But would this person also be as good a partner as H? as good with my children? As strong in his faith? as good a financial partner/custodian of our $$? etc....Who knows?
Another D? My children (especially my older 2) need the stability of this M and of my H as a person. They've already experienced D once. Am I worried over the long haul? Oh yes. I am hoping for menopause to bring diminished sex drive with it. If not I must really keep fences tended or I might be swayable. My boss has repeatedly made it clear that he would love to do me but I'm not that dumb and he's not my type.
The thing that bothers me is that sometimes I recognize a "kick the dog" thing going on where the lack of intimacy makes me get unnecessarily grumpy with people (the kids) who have nothing to do with it. That is a problem. When I see it I want to scream at H that if he doesn't want to live with a grumpy B then he should fcuk me once in a while.
