Things still seem to be good between us. H and I are talking and laughing about lots of things. Nothing deep, but he's never been into discussing anything deep.
Sometimes I'm not sure if he's kidding or serious--he likes to say really outrageous things on occasion, so I generally assume he's joking. This is something about our R that has always bothered me a little, but I usually just let it roll off my shoulders...he's never been great about showing respect for me in front of the kids (or anyone else really), and I worry a little about our kids growing up and ending up in the same kinds of situations or worse. IMO, this habit of not taking anything seriously has definitely led to the sitch we're in. It's a lot easier to minimize really big stuff and blow it off if you never give the M or anything else of importance the respect it should have.
Reality is though, this is him. This is who he is and always has been, and though I can hope that someday some parts of him will mature, I need to find the positive things about him and love and encourage them.
He's working away from home in the evenings...mechanical projects...but is usually home in time to spend a few minutes with me before I go to sleep. So we're still heading forward together. I'm not feeling as bothered about the possibilities of what he could be doing behind my back, and I'm just being patient and having faith that the deep stuff will work itself out.
